A Selection of Back-logs

"He didn't even know he was destroying her life. In fact, if he had known the effect of it all, he would never have continued." Most human beings will not consciously hurt each other, but do, and deceive themselves in thinking they do not. They would rather consider their own lives than those of others. Family and friends are pushed to the side when one is consumed by selfishness. It is a sickness. A silent, slow killer.

(Friday)
This morning is a late morning. In bed this morning I dreamed Opp. J and I were trying to get to work using a shortcut. We ended up being lost. I left the house a few minutes late and got behind a school bus on the way to work. The bus stopped twice. At both stops a kid ended up running to the bus because of being late. At work, I'm now surrounded by all the parts that I have to run. Every day the pile gets bigger, and I get farther behind. Sometimes somebody helps me catch up, sometimes not.
Opp. J is late.

2 Timothy
As Christians (Christ-followers) we are to be strong. We're not called to be side liners, but rather are compared to soldiers in active service. As soldiers we are not to participate in civilian life. We have duty to attend to.

(A confession)
I feel like its time to do some soul searching. I feel... guilty all the time, distracted, and my eyes have wandered off the goal. I have no current purpose driving my life. I lie and cheat. I can't keep anything I say to God. I claim Him as Father but don't act like His Son. I've been adopted into His family but still act like an outsider. It means something to be a part of this family, but I've been ignoring those who love me most. I have a guilty conscious even though the one who took me in said I was accepted just as I am. "In my house there is no condemnation," he said, "You are free." I don't act like I know this though. I continue to follow my flesh. I am selfish, and didn't realize how much it was hurting these people that care about me. What can I do or say to make Him trust me? How can he trust me when I don't even trust myself? I should come with a warning: "This man cannot be trusted."

It scares me that the more I learn about people the more anti-social I become. The more I learn about them, the more I observe, the less I seem to understand. People are not formulaic. Not in any sense of the word. How can I build characters? There's just so much complexity. Too many reasons why people do the things they do, and think the things they think. Some people are just too simple. I don't understand how they can be so easy. I can't tack down their motivations. All this is purely from observation though. It's hard enough to be yourself much less try to be someone else.

There are things I need to define, like what I want out of life. You can't just spend all your time walking around purposeless, waiting for goo d things to happen to you, and angry when bad things do.

(Notes from Church, please comment on questions asked, if you feel you have a good answer.)
"The Power of the Cross"--->frequently used metaphor. What does it mean? The stone was rolled away not to let Jesus out, but to show us He wasn't there--->"The Glory of God." What does it mean to accept Jesus as your Savior? What does one have to do? What does one not have to do? The command from God--->"Let your body die so you can rise again in three days." How does Jesus meeting and feasting with His disciples show the "Glory of God? "Jesus got up so you and I could get in." Priests would die if they had sin in their life upon entering the Holy of Holies, now we can access God without dying. Still, this can only happen if we are sinless. That, is what He did. Why continue to use the KJV? Somber faces. We need powerful Christians, not sideliners. Not "churchy" Christians. Don't hide what we know--->The Great Commission.

Plain, Brown and Recycled

Writing:
Thinking is easy, but thoughts only last for moments. No one can benefit from thoughts unless these thoughts cause some action. One of the most effective forms of thought-to-action is writing. Writing a thought down makes it concrete. Unless that piece of paper is burned, or that electronic document destroyed, those thoughts will last there forever. Now if you want your thoughts to really be effective, take time to edit what you've written and find a way to either publish it, or duplicate it for mass consumption. The more people that read your thought, the more concrete and real it becomes, with less chances of being destroyed. Hording thoughts and deciding to keep them to yourself, is the fastest way to destroy them.

Fight and Write.

Help Prevent Thought Decay. Write.